Hohohohoho (:
I’m back and I finally got an avatar.
Yay.
I guess I’m just a hopeless romantic or a dreamer. But I really want a summer romance. I’m not sure, but I guess I’m just tired of a hopeless one sided love. I want to meet someone spontaneous. Someone who’ll complete me. We’d go to the beach together. And stay up all night joking around and talking. We’d walk through the park hand in hand and then go for a picnic(: Yeah…I guess I’m just a hopeless romantic.
I think something is wrong with me. I don’t let people see how I really feel, so they just always assume that I’m super darn happy all the time or the nicest person ever. If you really knew me, you’d know that I’m only happy like 65% of the time and that’s usually a front. And I’m NOT nice. No one understands. Everytime I’m being mean people just assume that the other person must’ve done something. I honest to truth really commend the people who don’t hide their emotions…like what you see is what you get. Those people need to be applauded or something.
Thank you SO MUCH for making my first and last 15th birthday the WORST birthday ever. If not that. At least let me thank you for making today horrible. Thank you for screaming at me about my grades when I wake up. I wasn’t expecting you guys to do anything special today, but I didn’t need a lecture about how I didn’t try hard enough. And to make it worse, because you always find a need to, you tell me that you hate me.
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Wow, thank you so much. And let me save you guys the trouble - I don’t need a damn cake or fucking presents. You’ve already said what you’ve wanted to say and a bunch of sweets and wrapped up boxes won’t change a thing. And when it turns 4:01 p.m. I’ll wish myself happy birthday and do exactly what you want me to do.
I’ll study.
